i dont know. i feel so insecure these days. i have no or little faith that my best friend would be my best friend forever. like we're in different classes and yes i guess this is normal, but like we hardly talk. only when we have like no choice to. we hardly talk on the phone like we normally do and catch up with each other. but like now, we're like strangers. strangers who dont know each other and just bump into each other without realising. i guess maybe, just a little maybe, this is part and parcel of life right.

sorry darling. i totally forgot, it slipped my mind. i never ever plan to forgot, but maybe well i just did!): im sorry darling, but i hope this isnt too late!(:


happy birthday rachelll!:D
i love you to bits and pieces cos you've been so incredibly funny!:D you brighten up my so dark life that sometimes maybe you should just be a light! hahaha. omg im crapping. times with you have been funnn!:D i love you!(: gosh you're so gonna hate me for saying this!(: haahaha.

happy birthday colette too!(:

im such a slacker la! i plan to slack today when i know i shouldnt be. i cant stand being in 2m. i know even though the class is really fun and all, but it just gets too competitive. far too competitive. and i hate it. getting 85 for maths is counted below average. wow. it totally sucks la. and i had such an annoying maths teacher who said "use my notes to do the mindmap" and so i did, and guess what? he gave me 13.50! wow. so much for using his notes. pfft.

i've been rather active in mep, living up to my position as wing guardian!(: hahah. and i've been translating stuff, like i translated qiaoen's latest blog. hmm, hope my chinese improves like this!(: hahaha. but i really do love it there la!:D everyone is nice!(:

gah i gtg. watching the new 7 oclock show now!(: hahaha. bye ahwang, i loved you!:D heheh.

maybe it's time to let go, on smth that wasnt yours in the first place...

gahhh, im such a slacker and im not even studying now. gosh, i hate myself! how much i do!): gahhhh. i should go study now but i doubt i'll be able to. tmr's the last day then labour then test! GAH! i should really go now. but i bet i'll watch tv instead then bathe then maybe, hopefully study.

i have a secret to share, but i cant tell you. wow. how ironic. and yes delia tan is a confirm sure case retard! ahahha. and i persuaded aly to get a mep account!(: GO ME!:D it's the funnest there!(: it's always so high la. hahaha.

keeping a secret is hard, which is why it's called secret..

i made lots of new and yet fun friends in mep. like even though i've only been there for a month plus, but those people are really really fun to be with. you have like endless of fights, but at the end of the day everyone laughs and have fun. i dont really feel that it's more of a place of mingen love. but it's more of a place where you get to meet friends. and they're from other countries which makes it better. i mean like we hardly even stay on topic, we start going off topic like really fast. and like it's really fun being there la. i prefer it so much more to af. which is like the atmosphere is so cold. like theres a total difference between those 2 forums. and i prefer the one which is more loving(:

sometimes, i feel like i totally cant comprehend my mum and vice versa. like she can totally be so annoying. i know she tries to try and know me, but like it's a bit too much la sometimes. she doesnt even bother if i study, but she expects to see grades. and grades that like even if you get 10 a1s with your class, she doesnt care, cos she wanna see where you stand. but it gets annoying sometimes, like really annoying. at the end of the day for o levels, it isnt the mark but the grade. and that is something, she'll never understand. and sometimes i feel like telling her that but i doubt she ever does listen, does she ever care? she does, i know she does. but like the way she expresses it is like something i prefer her not to. like maybe sometimes, she should just see the grade. like my sister flunked all her exams but does she ever care? no! does she ever care that my brother just passed his ca1? no, she says he's in a transition state! then why does she put so much pressure on me? on something which isnt even counted at the end of the day, marks. (the grades are counted) i can get 75 but it's still an a1 which is all that matters. oh crap.

the feeling of not being loved...

i have lots of friends in class, but like there are many different types. like we were just talking about a topic and like wow, so many different responds. but it was like a private among ourselves topic so ya, wasnt the whole full class's participation, but at least the part where i sit!(:

we were topic about whether you should wear bras to sleep, and someone said "no you shouldnt, it's make your boobs smaller!" and another person said "no you shouldnt, have 60% more chance of getting breast cancer!" and i was quite amazed at both of the replies.

like one is a cheerleader, hmm i wonder who; and the other is a nerd, a retarded nerd. oh crap im contradicting but it's TRUE! hahah.

XOXO

is it life or is it just me who is acting so coincidentally? i thought it was fake, but how can it be so real at the same time? everything happen, just too quick. too fast that i cant really react now. give me some time, to ponder over it. and then come back to you. finally. without hurting your feelings or mine.

gosh naomi, you're so freaking stupid. S-T-U-P-I-D! i wonder how you even got into m

how hard is it to take away negative thoughts?

thanks delia and aly for waitng for me!(:and jeanne now for TRYING to cheer me up but it isnt really helping! and theres no art class tomorrow. crap that sucks. i wish theres an evaluation for cosunday for leaders so i can fill one in myself. i hate myself to the core for doing that. and yes how much i do wish i turn back the clock. unfair, unfair, unfair. it ALWAYS is. but i guess thats just life.

that shall be all for now...

i will praise You even when the times are hard...

i dont know. im really lost right now and i think i can go onto crapping mood. hmmm. happy thoughts? lots of them. today was like laughing day? gah.

delia is FUNNNNNY! she is so blur that sometimes you do feel like boxing her but most of the time you laugh AT her! hahaha. she is like smart dumb! hahah. we totally tricked her like mad and she believed us! and like in the bus, i said to her omg i feel so retarded having a friend like you. and guess her reply! huh? are you talking to me? and i said no im talking to myself. and she was like oh... huh? and i was like omg. shes so freaking funnnny la! and when we tricked her about the geog test, she thought it was true and when mrs chong came in she said "why arent we separating our tables?" and i was like omg.

but anyway, other than that, i got promoted in mep! ahhhh! hahaha. im quite proud of myself. and the only reason why i did was cos i translated the article in qiaoen's book!:O hahaa. cool. not really that of a bad deal after all.

a step can determind failure or success...

the word sorry, it's more than just a word. it's a feeling of really regreting what you did. it's has much more meaning than just a word. but often, many people, and yes i myself, use it more for it being just a word than for the actual true meaning.

did i ever tell you...
that meli is my home ec partner now?:O
that meli, tanhong, joy are prefect trainees?
that my dreams do come true?
that im special?

last night, i dreamt that ms bong came into class, wrote on the board all those names of the people that cheated for the hist test, and like wanted them to stay and the rest to leave. and guess what? my name was there, but it was wrong! it was "naime" and i was like ms bong my name's wrong, so she changed it and it was still wrong. went on and on until my sis woke me up cos she was trying to steal my blanket! EVIL! hahaha. then like it really did happen today morning, just that it wasnt ms bong, but mrs ong. and she didnt write names.

gah, quite funny. had fun during gb today. it makes wednesday all the better. i love wednesdays! cos of gb. hahaha. oh man, tmr's boring day, but at least there's ls, and we're growing our plant culture!(:

maybe you could just give me some air to breathe first, to digest everything, then come back to you...

i read from mep, which is my current favourite place a SUPER funny JOKE! hahaha. omg it is the funniest on earth, so far! hahaha. well, kinda. or maybe it's just me. heheh. but im serious. anyway, here goes...
求婚

林明道拿著九十九朵玫瑰献给漂亮的乔恩：“嫁给我吧！我爱你！”

乔恩：“算了吧！我对你没感觉。”

林明道：“请告诉我那一点不好我改！”

乔恩：“你到底喜欢我那一点！我改！”

Proposing:

Lin Ming Dao gave 99 roses to the beautiful Qiao En, saying: "Marry me! I love you!"
Qiao En: "No! I don't have any feelings towards you."
Lin MIng Dao: "What part of me do you not like? I'll change it!"
Qiao En: "What part of me do you like? I'll change it!"

Credits to Baidu Mingen Bar.
http://tieba.baidu.com/f?kz=358970127
elsa-x3 from mep

omg its seriously freaking funny la. but i bet you guys wont understand it so whatever! hahah. bought rach and tannie's present today! hmmm, i love them bought. aly's wrapping's tannie. i wrapped rachel's. with jeanne's method. SAVE THE EARTH! hahaha. smart!(: i gtg and study. i know i should. i shouldnt be online, my dad hid the cable again as usual, but well... heheh. i found it? ahhaha. im just too smart, as usual. heheh.

maybe the main reason why i dont really trust you is cos of the insecurity i feel when im with you, or maybe it's smth else. but im sure, that has a part in it.

okay im so retarded and spastic that i dont think i make sense. the title is so stupid and yes thats cos i made it. i dont know, but i do hate being controlled. like somehow, it'll all manage out. but like whenever someone forces me to do stuff. i get super stressed and it NEVER works out!): oh crap, i so should be mugging now. and i will, soon. i promised myself at 5. with the tv. heheh. then in the night, plain mugging. so ya. hahaha.

ftly's rating is 4.77, same as last week's. phew. quite stable la. so i guess it will stay here? hahaha. but anyway, i should go soon. need to do the instructions, by tmr?! oh crap.

ONE TWO THREE FOUR
I AM UM A TOO LIPPED ORANGE SAW!
GO... ANNAA!
wow, this was created by jeanne in 5 mins? for anna. LOL! spastic girl la!:D

it's time to go as we say our little prayers...

it's rather late right now, and yes. i should sleep soon. im feeling rather confused. and in this confused state, i guess only i can help myself. it's so hard to keep things to yourself. and yes im rather confused, by a lot of things. sometimes, i wished i didnt think too much into things. but at least then i wont get hurt cos i know what kind of person you are. but then again, if i didnt think that much into things, all these wouldnt have started. we wouldnt be were we were right now, at crossroads.

it's so scary, that i might have made the wrong decisions. i keep on seeing shadows of myself potraying in some of my actions, like those that i say i must correct but it's still evident in my life. im so afraid, so insecure. and i hate that feeling. i remember telling myself not to believe whatever my friends tell me, i must have a mind of my own, but i was foolish enough to believe whatever that person said. and yes i really do see history repeating itself. and im so afraid to move on. oh crap, i hate this. emo post. but i shall liven things up.

on the other side, today was rather fun. church and all. hahaha. finally got an unglam and glam picture of yf and lydia. yf pushed lydia down the water! hahah. but well, lessons were... no comments. and we are so paparazi-ish. hahah. ruth amanda and i. and choir, hmm. fun? hahah. alice and the chipmunks! LOL! nice one chris. and like zacky, oh crap. im so in love with him. who wont be la you tell me! ahahaa.

hope this kinda did brightened up today's post!(:

和我做朋友 別再偷偷觀察我
只要花言巧語哄我愛我的小動作

it's friday, and yes i do thank God for that. last friday i was filled with anxiety, unsureness, fear, but now, i feel so relaxed, happy and contended. i do thank God for last friday, because at least i know, it will be a blessing in disguise. the only reason that He allowed it to happen is because He wants us to go through different trials. and all these will end off well, and im sure of that!(:

another reason why today is so cool, maybe the best day of my life, cos like napfa(someone in class who wrote on the board spelt it like that, i always thought it was nafa! hahaha) is off my mind now!:D YAY! i passed my 2.4 today! better than last year's by like 7 sec? hahaha. and smelly aly ran like 15.smth. annoying! and elizabeth ran like 10.56? super fast lor. crap okay! hahaha. but im quite happy and contended with my results la!:D heheh.

and finally, the third reason is cos 3 little cute kids are at my house now. they're so super duper cute and funny, they're also really guai and all. and they ate their greens even though they hate it, tsk tsk jeanne, you should feel ashamed! hahaha. they remind me of the way childhood should be, playing and more. those 3 kids, they bring back so much memories!(: they've been to places i havent, and they fill me in on those. the smallest one has worse hairstyle compared to min, he looks more like ahwang! hahaha. but that makes him even cuter; the second is super guai, cos she packed up the soft toys after looking at them, and she was the one who suggested it; the oldest acts like the oldest brother, taking care of his little siblings. those three kids-spencer, eleanor and sean!(:

today did have good things, things that make a good impact, but yes it did have bad things. the rocs 2 trip's thing is out, and we're going to study/visit places unlike the other 2 groups who are learning stuff and doing stuff. the second group gets to have a city tour of kl. wow. shopping. but i know, bonding with my friends, my class is what matters, i should be contended.

and another thing, slug was so annoying. crap la. shes in the wrong but no she doesnt wanna admit it and says we're giving excuses! she's such a toot. and she has such a freaking big baby bump but it's actually fats! ugly old slug, inspiration for monsters inc.

but then again, today was rather fun too! hahaha. mrs hor is the best! THE BEST! she's so freaking funny, she told us all her interesting and humorous stories. she just made them humorous. funny funny. we were all elated that she was taking gel, but she didnt end her stories!): and like the topic she was supposed to talk on was responsibility and in the end she started talking about giving birth! hahaha. funny. responsibility of a mum, or so she says. but she's much better. and yes, i feel that i learn more under her!(:

and slug was rather funny during gel though. but she's still mean and evil and she lives in denial cos i bet she thinks she's pretty. uh. disgusting woman. crap i shall stop ranting!(:

pitch up tanks
wow delia, so much for snowing in malaysia...

5 items today and i passed. which was what i totally aim for. hahah. and passed my standing board jump!:D ohmy, go NAOMI!:D hahha. and thanks to jeanne, delia, aly and jen for like "training" me before 5 items. hahah. thanks dearies!:D and i passed sbj by one cm!:D hahaha. thanks to jeanne? nah! but seriously, thanks to her and delia, for being my instructor and for all those kisses!:D MUACKS!(:

i did 30 sit ups, and like i just realise a is 31!:O what the crap! stupid. pfttt. but ohwells. im not like aiming for gold or smth!o.O im just satisfied for a pass. hahaha.

scared for the run tmr!): im dead if i fail this. crap. okay im gonna turn in early!(:

im jeanne, i will fly...
im jeanne, i will pass my run!

maybe life without you would be better for me...
how would i know till i try it out...

jeanne and aly's birthday!(: birthday dedication coming right up, and yes it's by alphabetical order, revenge jeanne dear!(:


alysia see!(:
you funny sms pal. aiya, i very lazy. anyway all my dedication is already in my card and it's from my deepest downest part of my heart! ahaha. i spent minutes on it lor! better be grateful. did yours and jeanne's till 12 lor. which is why then i decided to stay up! hmmmm. happy birthday darling!(:


jeanne ng!:D
RETARD! hahaha. DAO-ER! go mix around with more people la. and have fun on your birthday and your dedication is on my card too!:D hahaha. read aly's one to get the full idea of it!): heheh. and be grateful for i can tell, read in your mind, that you wanna sleep with me!:D hehehe.

i love these two friends of mine!<3

this incident, indeed, it has got me and my friends closer, the class closer, and even me and certain people closer. yes it's really indeed a blessing in disguise. it made me understand a certain teacher better. how nice and how true she really is. this incident is really something that i now am grateful for. at first, it didnt seem like it was something i'll ever be grateful for. but now i know, i finally realise. that this indeed, is a blessing from above, from God. i knew i could trust in Him through difficult times, for He will always be my shelter. He has already planned my path, for He knows it's good for me. i thank Him for that.

i think the world would be really boring without friends. without darling friends, retarded ones, lame one and spastic ones!(:

i love delia, cos shes so retarded. she makes me feel like killing her sometimes, but usually, i tend to laugh more at her! shes one funny dude you MUST go shopping with. cos at the toy department she acts like a little kid and starts talking in a toy-ish voice, holding a toy and using it to talk to you. she's one funny person that got so scared watching tkamb and i scared her even more and she screamed and got frightened like mad. shes one funny person that believed mrs lee when she said we were gonna pitch tanks! she's one funny friend that trys to act pervertic sometimes and do really wrong things. yes, shes my friend. & i know that life without her would be a total bore.

i love soph, cos she can tolerate me. she trys to prove me that listening in class doesnt work and i try to prove her wrong. she can tolerate ALL my childish behaviour on not letting her copy my work and become very possesive because im trying to teach her to listen, and that sometimes when im really childish i'll ask the people around me not to be her friend or they cant be mine. but yes, she tolerates this all. especially when i go crazy! hahaha. she's one funny friend. especially the corn potato one. she and her nonsense and her crazy time. but yes, i shall rescue her from the burning fire!:D volcano, whichever!(: heheh.

i love jay, cos shes my bulliable friend. she doesnt really get angry when i annoy her. dont tell her stuff. and make stuff up like she wants to sleep with me? and shes also my kissable friend. stare at her cheecks and you get my point. it looks so smooth and nice. okay i shall stop here for that. she's one fun friend who is very faithful and loyal. and shes the best tuition buddy anyone can ever have cos she was late for tuition and she was still in the cinema. wow. hahaha. funny friend, yes yes indeed. she isnt nice to tell jokes to though. she doesnt laugh and say that she has heard that joke before, and she makes you feel retarded. but yes most of the time she is retarded herself. this funny friend of mine. she made me feel totally like a queen on my birthday by saying endless happy birthdays. & giving me a wish and deciding it for me. & standing around me with other people to give me 5 secs of silence when it is retarded. yes this good friend of mine, is R-E-T-A-R-D-E-D! and yes, i can sense within her that she wants to sleep with me, just that she'll never own up to it. funny.

i love aly, cos shes the best sms pal anyone could ever ask for. she replies so fast most of the time that sometimes, you feel slow and you're like lagging behind. she often talks some sense into you and tries to encourage you most of the time. shes really lame sometimes, and tries to crack jokes that are not funny. but yes, they do crack me up most of the time. shes so fun to fool around with that sometimes it wouldnt be fun to be alone. smart! hahaha. omg, delia's style. crafty. okay okay i shall stop. shes such a great stalker that i think that shes gonna be a PI next time, cos shes so good. she reads my blog, but never tag. sneaky. okay okay i shall really stop. hint hint aly, it's time to tag now. shes the best person to discuss taiwan dramas with. and anything taiwanese. she likes jay chou cos he's rich and not cos he's hot. okay fine maybe she takes he's hot, slightly, a bit, close to not. im lying. she loves him like mad cos he's hot*coughcough*, rich and he's songs are nice. aly, the lame retard!(:

i love jen, cos she's always so nice. she always gives in to whatever i say, though sometimes, just sometimes, she can be mean and say something mean. but that's usually to aly, and like rarely or never to me? hahaha. funny. ohmy, it's delia's dumb influence that im doing this crafty thing. crap. okay. she can be quite funny sometimes, and well, a nice put-hand-on-shoulder person. hahaha. & she can also be lame and retarded like anyone else. she tries to make other people feel short by standing next to them and also tries to make you feel you're slow at running when she runs fast. but she does encourage!(: she encouraged me to run today though i did stop but i ran till the end in the end. ahhaha. yes, and shes fun to be with.

_________

okay done with my random dedications. ahhaha. just felt like it. dont even know why. today was kinda fun. it wasnt scary after all, nope, not at all. anyway, stayed back, ran 4 rounds before giving up and telling myself that i'll be running 2 more rounds tmr and then 8 finally on wed. went to westmall with aly and delia to get jeanne's present. got it and delia and aly thought it suited jeanne a lot so i got it. it's quite cute actually. and the woman was saying it was 30 bucks. and i was like WOW! thats ex for a small thing. but it was on promotion so it was cheaper, by a lot. delia did lots of dumb and retarded stuff la. and aly and i got so influenced by her with the crafty thing. not that shes influencial, but saying it is so funny. anyway, then we were like going down, and we were following her blindly. and she herself wasnt really looking. so she stepped on the escalator, screamed a little ahhh, cos it was the wrong way!-.- retarded delia strikes again!:D funny. and this other school kids laughed at her. hahah. funny. and like then we went to ts, looked around. aly and i were talking about taiwan dramas. and delia was rushing us. saw path of gold!<3 hahaha. then delia was like hurry, can you hurry... and we were finally done. and i saw wow, they still sell high 5 my favourite, wanted to trick delia. but she was watching her tv show of alvin and the chipmunks with a vcd in her hand. then she put it back and guess what show i saw it was? BARBIE! finally, delia's admiting her childish behavior. hahaha. sneaky. okay okay. gtg. it's late. rela late.

XOXO
ps, i typed this on 14 april!:D

ive finally found myself. the real, true self of me. im finally willing to face up to what i did. i told my mum all about it on fri, and she said that what i did was wrong, and i shouldnt try correcting a wrong by saying everyone also did that. i think perphas this IS a wake up call from God. and im thankful for that. i'll praise Him no matter what the outcome is tmr. cos we shouldnt care about what man think of us, but most importantly it is what God think of us.

actually, i had found my face already. but i forgot to post yesterday, so did you miss me? hahha. blogger, you funny friend!(:

the title, happy-yet-sad days is meant for like the days where im supposed to be happy but yet im sad. like fri, i was really happy, for the fact that i ran 8 rounds nonstop. yes i havent done that before. but yan said it was 7 and in the end i ran another round with jen. so anyway, then i was sad cos of the you know what. then like tmr im gonna be SUPER elated. cos aly bought my present already-qiaoen's book. unless she forgets to bring it, but i doubt she will. but i know tmr is like tabooo today! but yes, i still will be happy. and like this incident indeed, it brought me closer to my mum. i seldom tell her stuff. but i told her about this, and yes, indeed she does care for me.

so maybe, this could be a blessing in disguise?

im dead, so dead that maybe on mon, you wont even see me! and maybe well, just a little maybe, i'll go on hiatus for a while. until i regain my face then you'll only see me back. so bye blogger, it was fun, meeting you...

is this true?
is this really happening to me?
or am i still sleeping?

Lord, give me the courage, to face up with what i've done. i pray for my friends. and i thank you for this incident because i know, deep inside me, that this is a blessing in disguise. cos You helped me to realise, what i've also wanted to know.

in Jesus' name i pray,
amen

what has happened, happened.
now the main point is to face it.
& i will, though im scared.

sometimes, we should just stop our footsteps, and look around and enjoy the things around us. we are moving way too fast, that sometimes we just neglect the things that is already present and evident in our lives. we only realise their importance when we lose them, but if we stop and realise it beforehand, then maybe we wouldnt be so hurt when we finally lose them. then maybe we will appreciate them and realise their good and enjoy being with them. sometimes, it just takes a little while to realise it; or it can take forever and you may not notice it.

gotta go and study for my hist test tmr now, i have to continue cramming!):

XOXO

today was fun!(: but i shallnt elaborate on with my boring talk of the day. i was super restless and freaking tired during lessons today. i dont even know why. i promised myself to sleep early today, and i'll try. meanwhile i think i should just remind myself that tmr's thurs. smth im dying to come for. thurs, my favourite day is approaching. meanwhile, i'll just have to wait!):

oh gosh, i cant exactly stand people who uses someone else who is NICE and doesnt complain. oh gosh. especially 2 people in particular. im making this SUPER obvious, but this IS my blog, and well. it's the TRUTH! they use her like MAD! and it's only when they need her then they EVEN bother to be nice la! they make her do things for them, if not they abandon her! it's so freaking obvious, but yet shes just too nice to say anything about it. i admire her for that, but sometimes i do wish that i were her, and i would be screaming at them RIGHT THIS SECOND NOW for using her. they so do not deserve such a nice friend like her.

i shall continue going around forums reading to what i find is interesting. okay and another thing that is somewhat interesting, mrs cherie heng knows me! wow. thanks to robyn. cos we went to meet ms chong outside the staffroom and she was late, so we were waiting. then mrs heng came out to meet some girl. and like robyn pulled me, went up to her and said "mrs heng, this is your cousin!" i was like WHATTHE?!
mrs heng: not cousin la, distant relatives
robyn:*to me* i thought you said cousins?
mrs heng: *thinks for a while* yeah, can count cousins, half...
and it was like WHAT THE! and like then she asked me how i was coping with hist, couldnt reply her yet and she said when did i sleep in house meeting? i havent even been to one. and i was like OMG! my stupid cousin told her!:O i was like AHHH CRAP! erm whooops. and she said mistook me for some other teacher right? and i was like heheh yeah. crap la.

but anyway, i guess thats all. and im going.

over the mountains and the sea
your river runs with love for me
and i will open up my heart and let the healer set me free
im happy to be in the truth
& i will daily lift my hands
for i was always sing of when Your love came down...

cheer up jay, remember, i love you forever!(:

this quote, cracked me up during recess. yes it did. add on with aly's lame funny jokes and jeanne's dumbness. it cracked me up like mad. cos jeanne didnt knew the exsistence of the joke so she was like "HUH?! THERES SUCH A QUOTE?!" and aly and i were like "YEAH!" and she was like "oh i thought you made it up on the spot," and aly said "yeah like you're so ugly that you look like acid" or something like that. and MANY others which well, slipped my mind.these friends of mine are... FUNNY!:D and i feel loved when im with them.

THANKS GUYS!(:

thanks weiyi and rach for the spongebob present too!:D

XOXO

the feeling of being controlled sucks. i guess im more of a freedom person, so well, please STOP controlling me. to me, being controlled feels like being chained up, being forced to do something i hate, yes i hate being controlled, who likes it?

it's really really annoying when someone doesnt show their true colour and you think that thats the real her. i dont know. but i feel that theres LOTS of those kind of people. it's like ANNOYING! like they're so untrue, so fake towards themselves and others. it really is quite well, tiring, annoying being their friend, especially when you know thats not the true, real them. it gets quite annoying la.

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

xoxo

I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the one who gave it all
I'll stand my soul Lord to you surrender
All I am is yours

i cant stand betrayers. i seriously cant stand any of them. im serious. it's so stupid la. serious. like those that are super duper big betrayers la. they dont even feel anything wrong with it, and they rub it in too. i mean like there was someone i once knew, who was a really good friend of mine from mg pri. and like she was really good at a sport and was really close to the team of hers. then she goes to another school and when she's against us, yes even though shes sure she'll win, she doesnt have to boast and all right? i mean like seriously, if i were in her shoes, i would ALREADY feel guilty. but now, not only does she NOT feel guilty, she still has to boast about it. wow. what a nice betrayer la. stupid! and sadly, i dont really feel that miserable without you, cos well, you pms-ed TOO much in p6, got angry at the slightest thing like not waiting for you for recess. so yeah. have fun! cos im having fun without you right now! mg is L-O-V-E and it's SO MUCH better!<3

swim meet today was !@$%!^@^#%, it was so well sucky. and the weather made it worse. i never really see a need to attend it la. i mean like we watch people swim and its not even related to us la. im serious. it's a complete waste of time okay. im serious. and i got burnt too lor! it's so annoying la. hmphhh! and it ended late this year, with NO teachers' race. but the synchro swimmers were good, only the secondary ones la. the primary was quite messy, but they ARE primary school.

then we went out after swim meet. aly, soph, jen, delia, tanhong, jiawen, celeste and i la. 8 people in total la. and it was like quite fun. we were SUPPOSED to go with les, rachel and angelina to the mrt, but we left earlier and reached there at the same time as them. heheh. well we got lost. cos we thought we would be faster if we didnt follow mrs cherie heng, but we were wrong. hahaha. ohwells.

reached orchard, went to cine, ate at subway. it was really nice la. omg min is on tv now. seriously. he looks EXACTLY like her la. the hair! hahaha. especially this photo i have of her la. and like its super funny la.

oh then we took neoprints, tanhong, jiawen and celeste left for heeren, then we walked around, took more neoprints, soph left, and we left too. stopped at 7-11, bought slurpee. and like i said super a lot of things wrong today, it was sit the escalator down to the mrt, and i said sit the mrt down to the mrt. then at cine i said sit the mrt down to the basement. and i said eh it's that lift too or smth like that. it was super funny la. and aly kept making fun!): EVILLL! hahaha.

okay i guess i should get going now.

XOXO

I love pink