Im supposed to be doing my rocs thing, but i'll do that later when i confirm with my dad that i can really go for korea cos he's sorta objecting to me going, but i badly really want to go for it.

And maybe some things are left unsaid. It really isnt worth giving up everything just cos you arent satisfied with something. That's just how the world is, but then you know God has a better plan for you in this very biased world. We cant help it, but we know that we have God by our side.

Everyone has their own preference, and you cant possibly shove your opinion into hers. So why not let's just give and take? After all, this whole thing is a gimmick. It isnt even true that your score should have been lower than hers, but whatever. Does it really matter at the end of the day? Did you even want this? Does it really matter as long as you believe in yourself?

I love you crazy, no matter what!(: And sometimes, things arent worth your anger!:D

AFD tomorrow!(: Excited!:DDDD

2 more days!(:

Youth Alpha was good today. It intrigued so many questions that i think that im really unworthy sometimes. And i just, that makes me try harder to build a relationship with God. But honestly, that's what happened during camp, and it didnt last!): Im going to make it happen this time!(: Try my hardest and hopefully, persevere on!:D

And really, i've realised that i just accept things cos people tell me it's like that. And never once do i ever question, cos i just im scared im like questioning the truth kinda thing yknow. But then i realise today that it's actually better to question and to really answer these questions for yourself cos then you'll have a deeper relationship with God. And it really matters a lot to Him.

To some extent, i feel like my passion is dying really. Like compared to post camp, my passion isnt really as big as it was. But then, hopefully, i can relight it again. And have a burning passion for God. Cos truly, He is mighty to save above all!(:

Then also, i think i'll most probably go for TGIGF. And enrolment before that!(: Cos i know it's really gonna be awesomeee. Like the worship and sermon. It's gonna be like the sermons during camp. And that's really amazing!(:

Anyway, kelly is the awesomest chem teacher ever. She makes things SO simple that i understand almost everything as compared to yknow who. I think i understand everything that is. HAHAH. But there's this question which i really dont get!:/ So im gonna ask her tomorrow!(: And mole concept isnt as hard as i thought it was honestly.

Anyway, during youth alpha, kelly and charmaine asked a really important question. And it's actually very simple, but yet really personal in a way. "Why are you a Christian?" Really, this questio is really simple, but yet it questions so much. It really does. And honestly, i, myself, am still quite unsure of how to answer this question sometimes. I feel so weak sometimes. But then God said that when i am weak that His strength is made perfect in me.

God has really done so much for me in 2008. Testing of faith, and really, the first time it really happened, i just felt so unprepared and scared. I had so little faith and really, i think it hurt Him to see. But it was through that incident, that things are the way they are now. And He really has a plan for us. I would love to say it, but not here. It's too personal.

Hmm, and i admire charmaine really. I think i admire first generation Christians cos they really know NOTHING about Christ but yet once they know Him, their faith tends to be stronger cos they made a choice right? And charmaine is indeed someone i admire because of her faith. Her parents arent Christians but yet she faithfully comes to church every week. She has such a close and intimate relationship with God that it really makes you admire her cos she's a first generation Christian.

Honestly, my life anything but perfect, and the only secret i have is, God.

And i need to start being grateful for whatever i have.

Today was honestly a day with loads of reflection. Especially after youth alpha. I just kept quiet throughout the whole entire journey to my grandma's house, just thinking about all the questions and stuff. And really, sometimes, you have to find out the answers to your doubts and questions yourself, then it'll make the relationship you share with God more real.

Anyway, we had dinner. And celebrated my dad cum mine birthday today. Cookies and cream sweensen's cake especially bought for me. HAHA. And happy birthday dad!(: Ily. Thanks for everything really. Even though you can be a pain sometimes, but you're more of a blessing usually!(: Love you!:D

I need to finish ALL my homework by today. Study hist till im really good at it, or maybe at the airport tomorrow with steph. And then i'll only allow myself to go for first batallion's celebration party!(: HAHA. How honoured, im invited!:D

And then monday, im going for css, so i'll most probably study hist there. And yepp!(: Hist lesson and test on tues. Wednesday is AFD. And Thurs is my birthday. I've decided what i should wish for this year. And next sat, it's tuition as usual then youth alpha!:D Yay.

Thank you for the cross Lord.

Hmm, let's seee. Rocs briefing. I want to go to Korea but then i have mixed feelings. I rather go on a trip with someone enjoyable. And korea seems the funnest and yet cheapest trip honestly. But then again, my parents may not allow me, cos they say it must be the most enriching trip and stuff!:/

Anyway, tomorrow will be so rushed. I hope my parents can fetch me to pasir ris or else i'll be late for tuition and youth alpha. Hmm, anyway. Methodist walk. I wonder who im walking with, but we'll see tomorrow!(: And then tuition. And youth alpha. Im very excited for it, cos there's always something new!:D Somehow, im kinda scared of tuition!:/ Gah.

Never really liked any tuitions to begin with. But this tuition is sorta more fun and stuff?:D Heh. I hope tomorrow's lesson will be interesting and it goes well fine!(:

And then youth alpha!:D Then Kelly's helping me with chem. I need loads of help honestly. And bio too, cos i really suck at the enzymes chapter!:/ And then im going to my grandma's house to celebrate my dad's birthday!:D Yay.

Uh, anyway. My sister came back yesterday!:D Yay. I miss her loads. And she bought me a pair of shoes, and other stuff!:D So sweeet right?:D Heh. I was supposed to get a present for my daddy today, but heh. I never really got round to do it. And plus, many other presents which i still owe people!:/ GAH.

My cousin uploaded a photo of us when we were young. So heartwarming. And the thing is, you dont even remember taking it!:D HAHA. I think i looked so cute when i was young. And my brother too!:D HAHAH.

So much memories in such a photo. HAHA. Even though there's like none. But i remember going to my cousin's house more often last itme, and we'll play like mad. We're so caught up with our own lives now, that we only meet for SUPER big events or cny. But then again, we catch up so fast. I loveee my cousins!(:


6 more days!(:

My sister is coming back today, and i am freaking excited!(: Im finally seeing her after weeks and weeks. Hmm, rushing through e/amaths now. And i have tons of problems with it!:/ Cos i cant seem to get the equation and thus i cant get the answer!:/ Dangggg. I hate it when i make mistake and i dont know why!:/

Uh anyway. Finished maths, and doing bio now!(: I lovee bio, just that i honestly suck at enzymes chapter!:/ I should honestly start revising everything soon. I need to be more hardworking! How many times have i said that?):

Anyway, im going to try and sleep earlier today, compared to my usual midnight. Cos i honestly think i'll die trying to absorb everything if i continue sleeping at that time. And plus, i dont even get my saturday off, cos like there's methodist walk. I wonder who's walking with us, but i think i can kinda guess who's the one walking.

Anyway, going to continue doing bio. And well, stop pigging out in the computer! My sister is backkk!:D Yay.

7 more days!(:

My sister is coming back tomorrow and im so excited!(: Yay. I finally see her after weeeeeeeeks. And i honestly miss her loads. And hopefully, we'll go out on friday. Neeed to get birthday presents. And the most pressing birthday is my dad's which is this sat. Methodist walk day!(: Which will be SUPER stressful for me. Methodist walk, then tuition then youth alpha. Hopefully, it'll all be funnn!(:

Hmmm, im supposedly forced to go for Award Ceremony on 4th April, and like hopefully looi can go. Cos i honestly dont want to skip tuition AGAIN, and youth alpha too!): And like it isnt one of the funnest thing to spend your saturday on! HAHAHA.

I just finished lit, and i still have bio and amaths and CHINESE (!) and ting xie. Yeppp, super a lot to do. HAHAH. But i'll go off after this post!:D

Anyway, gb today was awesome. Something i was looking forward too! Or at least the enrolment part, but then it rained!): It's so cool, it's like pioneers marching for enrolment yknow! But without Amanda and Charlotte who are the candlesticks. And apparently another person has to step out too, cos it wont be a nice number. But anyway, it rained so we just practise the inspection part. And then like we're doing the marching and all hopefully next wed!(: And apparently, EVERYONE is marching. Which is coool, no stonning. Though the primary, and 2 secondary contingents stones more than us! HAHAH.

And we're doing music drill. I hope we get to practise before the easter enrolment! HAHA. And we should honestly dedicate it to baba, for like being so commited and stuff. And we should really give off our best this time! HAHA. Contingent baba is so cool honestly.

And yes, im gonna be a year 2! HAHAH. Finally. I should be a year 3 now, but apparently im still a year 2. And i hope i dont need to skip tuition on that day too! HAHA.

Uh, and yes. I have a friend who's planning to go to oxford. Yeppp, im so honoured to have a friend going to oxford. Hope she gets the scholarship she wants!(:

Oh yes, and i have to decide if i want to go for TGIGF!(: I hope i do though. Then again, im not too sure. Cos of tuition and stuff!(: And it's the same day as easter enrolment!O: HAHA.

Uh anyway. Im off. Helllo homework goodbye computer, hopefully!(:



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I wasnt very much excited for my birthday surprisingly, but i am now!(: HAHHA. And I've just realised how much i havent really kept in contact with some people. Must take the effort to!(: Make new friends and keep the old. Spazing with gen is the awesomest. She is so damn funny, and i cracked up like shit. I love chem periods with her! HAHAHAH. And maximum. HAHAHAHHA. I think im rather crazy now, but whatever. I should sleeep soon.

Btw, I KNOW WHO'S RELIEVING PANDIAN. HAHAH. And we're gonna celebrate american fish delight with her! HAHA. How exciting.

And this happened today,
"when's your birthday?"
"second april!"
"HA-HA. Very funny. It's not april fools' yet!"
"NOOO, REALLY!"

I feel so bad but whatever. Im suddenly so excited for school tomorrow. Yay. Except it's physics first, and honestly mr heng hates me!): Only him and laoshi gave me bad comments. The rest were goood(: Yay. And Mrs Chitra sorta encouraged me to read? But lyn got the same comment too! HAHAH.

And i got such a good comment for emaths and lit!(: Yay. I loveee bio too!:D HAHAH. Im attentiveeee!:D

Uh now now, before i get too excited. Im gonna sleeeep!:D

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8 more days!(:

Gb tomorrow. And it's one of the rare moments that im ACTUALLY looking forward for it. Like i hope we'll practise enrolment service (and waste time!) And the GOH too!O: So looking forward for that. It better be fun and stuff, or i'll totally regret looking forward to it! HAHA. And well, i hope we get dismissed at 530 tomorrow cos like we sorta did well for drill com. HAHA. Cos i want to watch my last ep of rainbow connection!

Hmm, anyway. Had this really long chat with my cousin last night. And she's really funny. I just realise that. And i honestly feel like some stalker but whatever. Heh. Anyway, i was talking to her about some stuff, and she told me to say hi to cherie heng. And i was like HUH, nooo. Cos i usually do, (i greet teachers okay!) but then she tends to ignore me, so i cant really be bothered. And then she was like you're scared right? And i was like NOOO. Okay fineee, i'll say charmaine says hi okay? HAHA. And she was like fineee. I will do that, one day!:D

Uhhh, anyway. Im going to study for hist cos it wasnt tested today.

And i've been slacking so much today!): HEH.

Anyway, congrats STUPID rachel lim, joselin, benita and aijia for getting in!(:

I hope rachel makes it to the final 3 though. I know she can, if she sings well and stuff. Voting really isnt the problem here. HAHAH.

And plus, even we're fighting cos i REALLY have no idea why we are but then have fun, and all the best and loveee you still! HAHAH.

Uh, now i really need to go and study.

And yay, the wireless is up!(: Plus shower too, and have dinnner.

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My sister is coming back on thurs night. And yes, im freaking excited. I havent seen her since last last friday!): And i miss her loads. I cant imagine how i'll survive if either one of us go overseas to study!:/ HAHAH. Im so excited. And maybe, we'll go out on friday. I need to get tons of birthday presents, and im rather rich now. HAHA.

Btw, it's 9 more days till my burfday!(:

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Im supposed to be studying hist and chem but whatever. Im not. HAHA. Not that i dont care, i do, i really do. But it's just too tiring. I think im giving myself too many breaks but, whatever. HEH.

Anyway, i'll try my hardest to make this quick. Just that, i kinda forgot what i wanted to type which helps a lot really.

I liked chapel today. At least for the worship segment. And i saw Tessa after chapel, and apparently she was playing the guitar. I didnt realise! HAHA. Since we were seated quite far from the stage. And it's so nice seeing her since the last time i saw her was in p6? HAHA. And she still remembers mee!(: Yay. And Charmaine was there too. But im seeing her more often than usual so it's okay i guess?

I was rather tired in class today. I should honestly sleep early and stop procrastinating on my homework. Stupid chinese test tomorrow after school. Oh good grief!): I just rememebered it! HAHA.

And i havent really done bio. Im the worse bio rep ever honestly. And i really need help for Amaths cos i think im gonna fail the pop quiz this week.

And i cant wait for gb on wed. GOH and everything((: Heh.

Did i mention? Saturday was really awesomeee. And i cant wait for the next youth alpha. I think i was really high before youth alpha. Which is why i was slightly crazy. And stupid fangren. REALLY AND HONESTLY. Plus, while walking to church, Ruth and I saw a rainbow. Like a full one, and the after like 5 mins, it was gone. So cool right? God's plan for us to see the rainbow!:D

Anyway, i think Kelly thinks that there's somerthing between Marcus and I now thanks to STUPID fr. SUPER annoying. Though i did kinda break to her about fr and r! HAHAH. But whatever.

And Kelly is such a bimbo! HAHAH. Ethan Hawke is like so hot! HAHAH. And it's super unimaginable cos like she's supposed to be a nerd! HAHAH.

Anyway, then on sun. Cosunday chinaaa!(: It was really fun, but i was kinda dead really. I think cos i really am deprived of sleeep. But then it was still funnn!(: And i loveee the worship even though it's children's worship!:D

Then i talked to Yvonne a bit. I was annoying her. Cos she asked me how i was. And i went on about her going clubbing. HAHA. She's SUPER funny.

Then i saw Grace and asked her what her results were. She still wouldnt tell me!): But ohwells.

Played around and had debrief. Then had sunday school. Which was the briefing for next week. Yay. Partnering stephhhh.

Uhh, i really need to go now.

STUDY!):

Btw, congrats seniors and primary. So we have 2 silvers, 2 golds and 1 challenge shield!(:

UH, and. I actually wanted primary to get challenge shield, but then thinking about it, maybe not. Cos then we'll have challenge shield for seniors and prmary, and pioneers will be like none? HAHAH. So yeppp.

Im very happy today. Which is maybe why i was a little crazy during youth alpha! HAHAH. But then again, who really cares. Cos it was sorta the intro thing which was alright!(:

Anyway, im REALLY happy. First and foremost, primary school got gold!O: From a COP to GOLD. Super goood. And then it was only ruth, rach and i. But we had loads of fun!(: HAHA. Cheering and stuff. And we really enjoyed ourselves.

Then the senior got CHALLENGE SHIELD!O: That one was the major screamer. I screamed like mad and i really was SUPER happy. I felt like crying. I did tear. And i loveee sau's contingent. HAHA. And i mean like, I PLAYED A PART IN THE CHALLENGE SHIELD OKAY! HAHAHA. I trained them during my march hols okay! HAHA. And i like im SUPER happy their impromtu improved like nuts and their beloks were SUPER good today. Their dressing and all was REALLY good. Goood job guys. Especially Rachel Lee, Tanya, and many others. HAHAH. But i usually call you guys so yeppp. I loveee you tanya!(:

Then like i found out we're doing GOH for enrolement. SUPER excited for that. Like sec 3s are doing it!(: Yay. And we're doing our music drill too, and baba's coming. So yepppp!(: Makes it so much better!:D HAHA. And we better not screw this one up i tell you!:D

And like i met someone who i havent seen since last week. But the point is, she didnt just say a HELLO and look away! HAHAH. We sorta chatted. I like meeting people i havent seen for a long time! HAHHA.

And i just realised, there are SO many funny people around me. Marcus Chua is SO funnny. Omg, i laughd like crap!

How do you find today's youth alpha?
I go to church, and they were publicising youth alpha, so...

WTHECK. And then.

Did you enjoy the games just now?
No i played it.

HAHAHAH. I laughed like mad with ruth and we just went slightly crazy.

Uh, homework and pesky brother.

Cheeena-pok.

Just cause everyone thinks that way doesnt mean you have to comply and follow. You once said something that really meant a lot to me, you once shared splendid memories with me, but now it's all gone. And you hardly care a bit. I wonder why you were even my friend in the first place. I dont know you now.

I had such a busy day today.

Ohhh, and yes. Monday went to school for sau's contingent drill. Sat the same bus to school with rachel. We have SO much telepathy! HAHA. And chemistry!(: Then we strolled to school though we were late!:/ HEH. And yepp, I helped sau and she helped ina. Then she helped sau's and she was freaking strict and serious. I felt super scared of her really! At that moment at least. But it's good for them, really.

Then headed to kap for lunch once drill was over. Went to cold storage to waste time and wait for the value lunch meal. Fooled around like crazy. Rach and Ruth are embarrassments i tell you! HAHAH. They played like mad, and the cold storage guys stared at us!:/

Had lunch. And ruth and Rach camwhored while i read my 8days. And they did the weirdest stuff! Played and fooled around and we left around 140. Then we cabbed back to school cos it was raining. Rach had badgework, and i loveee miss ng. She's honestly so nice. She managed to help me get the form to support senior and primary this sat! Yay. And thank God!(:

Then went to help primary drill with Ruth. It was quite funny, and their drill is kinda okay. I hope they do well. And they have over 20 contingents to compete with also!O:

And they just need to brush up a little on their smartness and well, their together-ness and it'll be fine.

Hmm, and then rach, ruth and i went home in a cab. We cabbed so much i tell you. HAHA. And my mum's paying so yep. And then like they played drums while i went to shower. Had dinner, and we left. Went for css, and rac sang really well. But the others sang better i guess? And yeah.

Joselin and her got eliminated. But i guess, it's really good for the both of them individually already right? HAHA. I mean, rachel's chinese isnt even good, and it's REALLY good she has come so far into this competition. And joselin doesnt even have any vocal training, her voice is REALLY good.

Ohhh, and then during the intermission, i pulled lesley and chloe to say good job to joselin. And then she was like "Naomi right?" And i was like "YOU KNOW MY NAME?!" Super shockly cos i didnt know she knew me. And lesley kept making fun of me after that!):

Stupid lesley kept going on about her encounter with Felicia Chin!): She's so annoying i tell you. HAHA.

Ruth's dad fetched us home after that. Thank you very very much!(: Changed and computered. Then i called rachel at 230 i think. Chatted till around 3 cos she didnt want to let me sleep!): And she's honestly the worse person to talk to. Cos she doesnt talk and ignore you while she msn. And i was fallin asleep half the time cos it was really late. And then she would be "hello?!" And i would wake up! And i wanted to get off the phone but she kept insisting "i was super bad cos i was abandoning her and making her talk to a guy alone!" And i was like WTHeck.

But i slept at around 3 in the end, and i woke up at 315 cos i was coughing like mad. And i vomitted!): How niceee!): My mum made sure i had cough medicine tonight. And my flu's back. Good grief!):

Woke up at 12 today. Had 9 hours of sleep finally. Washed up and had breakfast. Played computer till around 230. Hurried to change and stuff and left the house at 3. Went to island creamery. Met Chloe and Glenda there. Lenny came soon after, and stupid rachel was still at home FINDING WHAT TO WEAR! HAHAH. And Glenda said "she can come in her pyjamas!"

We had an ice cream, and then she finally came. Had another one with her. And i saw Yongen and Ashlyn there. My sister's ex classmate. Waved to Ashlyn but not yongen cos he was with his geek friends, and well, we didnt even have eye contact.

Left around 5 and headed home. Made it in time for my shows. I miss watching them yesterday!:D So yeppp. And then played a little of drums, showered. Dinnered and tv!(:

Tomorrow will be spent at chinese tuition, then drill prac.

Thurs will be drill prac so far only. Friday will be spent at some SL thing. And sat will be spent at Nee Soon camp supporting the seniors and primary. Then Youth Alpha dinner which is at church and it starts at 6. Ruth and i would confirm be late unless drill com ends earlier. Which i hope it does. I hate being late!:/ HAHA.

Anyway, i need to finish my chinese tuition hw now. I havent even started on my school work!): Dang. Did the school rules quiz though!(:

I guess, it's better for everyone that things are like that now. And surprisingly, your reaction isnt one that i expected. Mine isnt one that i expected too. I mean, i kinda expected the results and only believing on a little hope. (that same small amount of hope for gold for drill com!)

But i mean, who knows if the results are even fake? Who knows if we actually got more votes than jiamin? Who knows if the results are even true? No one.

I honestly think we got more votes than jiamin okay! But whatever, it's over.

I mean, it may be the end of Rachel's CSS jouney, but it's definitely not the end of her singing. And really, it's really good she got into the top 5. Compared to what lesley believed at first! HAHAHA.

And i guess, the good thing is, she fulfilled her promise! HAHAH. She didnt cry on national tv. Okay, actually she cried when other contestants got out, but then at least she didnt cry when she herself got out. And no matter what, i still believe that she got more votes than jiamin, but whatever.

And really, if the scores are really adjusted and stuff, it isnt fair. And by kicking Rachel out, they are honestly losing loads of money, cos mg girls vote like crap for rachel; loads of viewership. If almost everyone in mg watches css, it'll be around 2000 people. And like once she's out who can honestly give a damn? I mean, really, if rachel wasnt in css i would even bother to watch. I dont even know who's the winner of season 1! I only knew the winner of season 2 is Shawn Tok thanks to Rachel! HAHAH. So it's really a negative negative situation!

But whatever, cos the main reason why Rachel joined this competition was cos she wanted to see how good her voice is. And really, it's awesome.

Loveee you crazy girl!(:

Yay. I just caught the next episode of ghost whisperer which came out quite reccent and Jim is FINALLY back. Yay. Im superrrr happpy. And i finally get why they couldnt really see and recognise him. Cos he wasnt supposed to look like Jim but then they made Jim be played by David Conrad still. Im sorry, you guys dont get me cos you need to watch the freaking show which is so damn good.

And there's gonna be a season fiveee too.

Anyway, i need to sleep now. Drill prac tomorrow. And rachel's performance!(:

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Read some blogs just now. And i realise that, there are people who are sad, and yet, some are happy. Idk really. Yan told me that, it's really God's gift that we got silver. I know it is, and He really rewards us on our merits and everything. And maybe His plan isnt for us to get gold or even challenge shield. And we really screwed up big time and so a silver is really something we should be happy and contended with right?

But really and honestly, i feel like crying just thinking about how much time i wasted being so stubborn and defiant and thinking everything my way is right. I regret wasting so much time fooling around when i shouldnt be. I regret acting like a fool. But now it's all too late i guess?

And maybe, i can try to make it right. And ensure that the seniors wont have any regrets. Which is partially why i wanted to go down to mg and help sau tomorrow. And to really tell them my experience.

Really, im satisfied with the silver, but im not satisfied with myself.

Took this from Melody's blog, "what's done at the parade ground, is left at the parade ground"

Thank you pioneers for the REALLY 48 hours and more of bonding. You guys have really given me much more than fun and laughter. And thank you very much for all of that!(:

It really isnt the end of us. We still have more pracs to come for easter enrolment right?:D HAHAH. We REALLY wont screw that up this time. And ily guys so so much!<3

I really understand how some teachers can be so dedicated to gb!(:

I honestly loveeee my sunday school class. And we're so sticking together to be a cell. REALLY. We have to. Plus, Avery's house is awesomely hugeeee. I've never been to a house bigger than his really. And he has 2 rockbands, one which he broke for playing too much!-.- He's really good at drums. He can get like 98% and expert for drums. He's crazy.

Anyway, ruth pushed Marcus into the pool and he had his phone, iphone and wallet in his pocket. HAHAH. So we spent the rest of the time drying everything. We're going to spent time taking LOADS of pictures at avery's house next time cos he has an awesome house! HAHA. And rockband less. Cos we honestly spent the ENTIRE afternoon rockband-ing. Like times with LA and Rob. The entire night! HAHAH.

Hmm, anyway. Tomorrow im going back to school to train sau's senior contingent. Rachel's training Ina's contingent and Ruth is tagging along me. HAHA. Im gonna be SUPER strict and kid less with them cos honestly, it'll be REALLY sad if they dont put in enough effort and regret it later like yours truly.

Anyway, then we'll have lunch. And Rach has badge work, while im going home with Ruth. She's coming over to play drums. Then we're heading for school for the school transport to mediacorp. And back at 1130.

Then on tues, it's agents outing at island creamery? At like 330? Hmm.

Then wed, i have chinese tuition.

Then thurs, it's currently my ONLY free day. Hopefully, there'll be more.

Then fri, SL stuff. Hopefully, it'll be fun!(:

And sat, i managed to cancel tuition. And hopefully i can go support seniors and primary. I really want to support them! And i have youth alpha dinner after.

And that'll be my whole march hols!(: Im really VERY excited for this entire week.

After drill com at school!(:

I loveee you pioneeers!(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEF. Im sorry i couldnt have lunch with you today!):

I guess, i really should thank God for today. And really, i have loads to say. I guess, i really should be glad that we at least got a silver, even though maybe i expected more. Idk why, but i think im weird. I REALLY didnt have ANY expectations before the competition, i REALLY didnt expect ANYTHING. I was fine with ANYTHING cos i guess, i know i've REALLY improved a lot, and the experience is what matters most too. And also, if God is pleased obviously.

BUT now after getting silver, i dont feel contended!): Cos it's like hours and hours of practises, and we really did badly!): Or maybe more for myself. I guess, i expected more? Like for music drill, quite a few times i was on the wrong foot, and i dont even know why! Like it's alright during normal pracs. And also, the counting got faster and faster!:/

And then for silent, our stamps as usual. What's new? HAHA. And for impromtu, we were facing left, and when nava said bejerak ka kiri betiga tiga ka blakang pusing, which means turn 180 degrees to your left, which is OBVIOUSLY wrong. But then i turned and i didnt realise it was wrong until Nava said SEMULA, which means undo!

But i guess everything's over. And really, God has done a lot to let us get silver despite the MANY slip ups. And He has really carried us through this competition.

He's ALWAYS there with us during our practises. And He really loves us no matter what!(: And i guess, maybe that's the thing that gb is different from other ccas. God is really brought into the cca a lot. And He really should get all glory and honour for our award.

Hmm, anyway. For the better news. We're gonna do the music drill AGAIN during easter enrolment. And i hopeee we are allowed to have a GOH during founder's this year. We BETTER have! It's so cool really.

And i loveee my boots now. One is unshined and the other is polished and shiny till it cant be shinnier. Cos like the kiwi melted during inspection. And my leg was burning like crap!): But i surviveddd. HAHAH.

Hmm, anyway. Bandage was reallly funn!(: The front was boring though. Got livelier at the end. And the sji guys infront us were REALLY annoying and mean. They kept making fun of bands they didnt like!

Anyway, you did well RACHEL LIM. Stop saying you did really badly. And Gooood job Charlene!(:

OHHH, and happy birthday jenny and Esther!(: love you guys loads.

And i loveee you pioneer contingent!(:

Btw, might be going down to school to help out with sau's contingent. Yay. I feel so enthu into drill now!(: HAHA. And really, i regret all the playing pracs!): And i HOPE i can support seniors and primary next week!:DD

Btw, cheer up kelley!:D Drill com isnt everything. And even though you expected more, but i guess we REALLY should be contended with our results.

Anyway, tomorrow is gonna be spent in church and then Avery's houseee. Yay. And finally, march hols!(:

Everything is gonna be over tomorrow.

All the months of practise. All the 48 hours and more of just plain drill. All the times we've shared togethr. All the fun. All the laughter. All the stonning drill. All the sweat. All the formations. All the music. All the nagginess from baba. All the "your stamps!" or "your arm swings!".

Everything is gonna be over tomorrow. And it's just so fast. Maybe if we're given more time, we'll be closer, we'll do better, we'll be less scared.

I'm gonna miss the twice a week of training. The blaming Yuen Min for EVERYTHING. HAHAHA. The spastic times with Amanda doing the dovies's thing. HAHA. The crazy times with Ruth and Rach camwhoring and whatever not. Im gonna miss everything!):

And tomorrow, everything will be over. And it better be well!(:

Just a quickie.

My sister is leaving for China tomorrow. My dad's in India now for a business trip. Dril com is on sat which is 2 days away. Tomorrow we have a rocs briefing. Rachel might be staying over tomorrow. And we're gonna catch bandage after drill com and rac is guest singing. How awesomeeee.

Anyway, happy (belated) birthday min!(: Love you loads crazy spaz.

2 more days.
Thanks for everything. And i guess, maybe it really doesnt matter.

I've been thinking so much about how easily happy we are when we dont have much. Honestly. And the flashback of camp just keeps coming back into my head. The 2nd night where we ruled and became first and got cushions. The freaking scenes when they annouced the results just keeps coming back to my head about how happy we were! HAHAH. Like we screamed like mad and everything!(:

Hmm, anyway. The week has been fine. Surprisingly, it's less tiring and stuff this week!(: And everything has been going all rightttt. Except for drill pracs, cos we only have a full contingent ONCE which sucks like crap!): Ohweeeells. It's gonna be fineee. And we had tons of talks already. AND the teachers have NO expectations of us, which just makes it much worseeee!):

Hmm, anyway other than training, life has beeeen fine. Im quite pleased with my term 1 grades except for Amaths, Physics, English and Chinese. We havent got back hist yet, and we never will until after march hols!): Gah. The rest are all pretty goood!(:

CSS yesterday. Congrats rac dear for getting into top 6 which is ALREADY very goood!(: Loveeeee you. And stop worrying so much dudeeeee.

Hmm, cross tomorrow. And then going out with ruth to catch Marley and Meeee. Yay. Super excited. And on sat, it's THE day!:/ Super scared i fall sick though. But then again, im kinda recovering. And then we're catching bandage togetherrrr. Yay.

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Thats all folks. 19 pictures is more than enough. HAAHHA.

Sometimes i feeel that maybe i'm just so fake. I've been trying to hard and everything else fails. Sometimes, i forget that im supposed to be pleasing God and not man. Sometimes, i just lose myself to everything else around me.

The thing about God is, i've tried putting Him in my background. And it seems like i tend to forget Him as time passes for that day. But somehow or rather, He just comes to the main scene Himself. How amazing.

I feel like a drummer honestly. The drum sets are aweomeee. Except it's in the attic and i hate climbing the stairs. It's so steeep and everything!): The going down is worse sadly!): But when you're up there, it's funnn. I hope we can get a freaking wii and rockband soon. Then i can rock the world with my music. HAHAH. My mum says maybe for a family entertainment. Since like my house has NO entertainment cos the xbox honestly doesnt appeal to me, and who knows where the playstastion is? HAHA.

Church today was aweomeeeely coool. It's so fun teasing jack and jill. And steph was supperrr funny. At least she got her wish answered of going to Changi! HAHA. And Jeremy Pan was as funny as ever. He wiped his face with tissue and there was still some on his face. Then he asked Yvonne who said all over. And he didnt believe her and asked me, and i said none. Then he was like ohhh okay. And boh yvonne and i started laughing. And he was like "i dont trust you both!" And so he took out his handphone to use it as a mirror! HAHA.

6 more days to drill comm. And im feeling a little scared. Tanya said she thinks we might win, but i doubt so. Im usually not negative, but it's realistic. Hmm, and i need to start polishing my boooots too. And inspection on tues i think!:/ Need to pin up ALL the badges by then. Maybe i should just do it todayyy!:D HEH.

And homework too. Amaths and Emaths. Havent started on either yet. HEH. Im such a slackerrr. Plus, who knows what kelly said to my dad. My dad suddenly said to me, you got top in your class is it? And i was like HUH! NOOO. So weirdddd.

Hmm, anyway. Tomorrow is gonna be goneeeee. And my daddy is leaving tomorrow too!): Then Mariko is leaving on Friday!):

Hmm, and tomorrow is gonna be rachel's css performance again!:D All the best dearrr. Loveeee you no matter what!(:

And drill prac before that. Peeektures of everything since cosunday will be up when i feel like uploading them which is sooon!:D

Im so tired. Im so sick. I just want to give up everything and have a full sleep which i havent had for days. I hope i get to skip tuition tomorrow. But then again, i think i might. Cos i felt quite feverish just now. I have no idea why im still on actually.

Im quite pleased, in fact very pleased, with all the results we got back today!(: Yay. Like all the marks for CT i got back today are A1s. Especially Emaths. A reason why i loveeeee the subject to bits and pieces. Quite okay with bio since it was last minute studying and it's still an A1. Hopefully, my bio spa will pull me up TREMENDOUSLY.

Actually, i think i feel rather insensitive sometimes. Like for my minute of rashness, i seem to give up the whole world for it then regretting my move the next minute. Sometimes i really wonder why i even do that yknow.

Hmm, anyway. Drill prac today was kinda alrighttttt. The sun was crazily hot though!): And oh yes. I got a B4 for English and surprisingly im rather okay and happy with it. I expected 50+ really. Cos i failed my first compre which had TONS of weightage!):

It's so super duper late and i havent showered as usual. I should honestly go shower now.

Happy birthday Jo Ee!
Happy (belated) birthday Chloe!:D

Hmm, and yes. The computer is indeed one of the bestest inventions for stalking! HAHAH. Not that i even stalk but everything's like just thereeee!(: Yay.

Guess what? I dont think i posted once common tests were over. So here goes. The week has been sorta pretty fine i guess. Though some disappointing results though i obviously dont really expect much from it honestly. Anyway, God has beeen reallly a blessing this week!(:

And guess what? Drill pracs are awesome. Kinda well. And it's been really fun spending afternoons with th ctg, except after 14 march EVERYTHING we've been practising will hopefully go to good use. And it's all gonna end soon!): Im really having mixed feelings about everything?

Hmm, and Yuen Min was SUPER funny today! She was like
"later are you going for training?"
"HUH?! What training?" I was pretending i didnt get her!:D
"Training la!"
"No Yuen Min, what training?"
"Pionner drill competition...PRACTISE!"
"DRILL PRAC LA! HAHA. And yeahhh, im going for TRAINING!"
HAHAH. She is such a joke honestly. And it's the funnest to bully her really!(:

Hmm, anyway, my brother fractured his arm, while playing soccer with his friends during recess i think. NOT even for rugby! HAHAH. Pooor thing.

Anyway, missing cip AGAIN next week cos of the LAST drill prac!): I wonder if that's good or bad! Maybe going for 3E for the entire thing will be better? HAHAHA. With the crazy people. HAHAH. Like weiRd Rachel and Retarded Ruth! HAHAH. Alliteration! Im such a lit student!(((:

Anyway, neeed to go and showerrrr. Stinking from drill prac. And there's more tomorrow. I wonder if it's reallya happy thing or a sad one! And there's css and drill prac next mon!): Freakkk!):

Neeed to polish booots too. And homeworkkkk, since im rather behind!):

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