-Sunday, April 20, 2008-11:41 PM Y
it's rather late right now, and yes. i should sleep soon. im feeling rather confused. and in this confused state, i guess only i can help myself. it's so hard to keep things to yourself. and yes im rather confused, by a lot of things. sometimes, i wished i didnt think too much into things. but at least then i wont get hurt cos i know what kind of person you are. but then again, if i didnt think that much into things, all these wouldnt have started. we wouldnt be were we were right now, at crossroads.
it's so scary, that i might have made the wrong decisions. i keep on seeing shadows of myself potraying in some of my actions, like those that i say i must correct but it's still evident in my life. im so afraid, so insecure. and i hate that feeling. i remember telling myself not to believe whatever my friends tell me, i must have a mind of my own, but i was foolish enough to believe whatever that person said. and yes i really do see history repeating itself. and im so afraid to move on. oh crap, i hate this. emo post. but i shall liven things up.
on the other side, today was rather fun. church and all. hahaha. finally got an unglam and glam picture of yf and lydia. yf pushed lydia down the water! hahah. but well, lessons were... no comments. and we are so paparazi-ish. hahah. ruth amanda and i. and choir, hmm. fun? hahah. alice and the chipmunks! LOL! nice one chris. and like zacky, oh crap. im so in love with him. who wont be la you tell me! ahahaa.
hope this kinda did brightened up today's post!(:
和我做朋友 別再偷偷觀察我
只要花言巧語哄我愛我的小動作