-Monday, April 28, 2008-5:37 PM Y
i made lots of new and yet fun friends in mep. like even though i've only been there for a month plus, but those people are really really fun to be with. you have like endless of fights, but at the end of the day everyone laughs and have fun. i dont really feel that it's more of a place of mingen love. but it's more of a place where you get to meet friends. and they're from other countries which makes it better. i mean like we hardly even stay on topic, we start going off topic like really fast. and like it's really fun being there la. i prefer it so much more to af. which is like the atmosphere is so cold. like theres a total difference between those 2 forums. and i prefer the one which is more loving(:
sometimes, i feel like i totally cant comprehend my mum and vice versa. like she can totally be so annoying. i know she tries to try and know me, but like it's a bit too much la sometimes. she doesnt even bother if i study, but she expects to see grades. and grades that like even if you get 10 a1s with your class, she doesnt care, cos she wanna see where you stand. but it gets annoying sometimes, like really annoying. at the end of the day for o levels, it isnt the mark but the grade. and that is something, she'll never understand. and sometimes i feel like telling her that but i doubt she ever does listen, does she ever care? she does, i know she does. but like the way she expresses it is like something i prefer her not to. like maybe sometimes, she should just see the grade. like my sister flunked all her exams but does she ever care?
no! does she ever care that my brother just passed his ca1?
no, she says he's in a transition state! then why does she put so much pressure on me? on something which isnt even counted at the end of the day, marks. (the grades are counted) i can get 75 but it's still an a1 which is all that matters. oh crap.
the feeling of not being loved...