-Monday, May 12, 2008-10:41 PM Y
i dont know, but i guess im more or less addicted to the computer. like so much so that my dad keeps the cable for the modem and locks it up. gosh he really gets annoying on that, but i guess i deserve it since like everytime he hids it i always manage to find it!(: must be the smartness within me la!:D ahaha. but if you look at it in a different aspect, i guess i kinda deserve it. since like all i usually do is come home, switch on the comp, eat lunch in front of it, play till around 6. then bath, watch tv, and on days where theres no hw, i continue playing, but when there is hw, i'll rush through it and continue playing. this is like so super duper crappy la. like i never take things seriously!): oh gosh, i hate myself!): so like maybe, this is good, in a way. and since my grades are dropping too!):
freak, life science and chem marks back today. and i guess its way beyond my expectations, but i dont feel better in any sense. cos i guess, i didnt exactly put in all that i've got. i didnt really study on the day before and all. and like if you ask me, i kinda do regret it. and im thankful at least God gave me high marks. yes indeed, my marks are rather high, but if you compare it with the level i guess im not even in the top few percent. gosh.
ca2 results coming back, and gosh i totally suck okay! my results are going down way worse. i dont know, like i really do try. i listen in class and all, and like it's never high. oh freak, and like the main point is, my parents dont give a damn what i get. it can be freaking high like a 100, but if the rest of the class gets the same mark as me, to them, it's low. like the dont care how many a1s i get, to them, it's what the level gets. and this gets freaking annoying sometimes. like they always teach me never to compare, and now, they're comparing. wow. so much for teaching me huh.
closure of history test today, i guess, well what pastor wendy watson said was really sweet and all. i mean like i dont know la. they keep saying they dont blame us and all, as in the teachers and all, but like then they keep implying it's our fault. gosh. and like im rather happy and yet sad. like freak, i scored so freaking high for the stupid retest. but ohwells, my fault so who else can i blame. i told my mum that i know a particular someone who like cheated in the test and didnt own up. surprisingly, no one told on her either. so like she isnt caught and all. and my mum said that isnt your business. it's hers, if she doesnt wanna own up, she has to live with her conscience. i mean i'll feel seriously guilty if i were her, and to add on she scored pretty well in the retest, which most porbably will make her feel worse. cos like her mark and a zero is like so much difference. actually i know lots of people who cheated but didnt admit, but i guess, they are the ones who live with a guilty conscience, and like after all the teachers and all have said, and they dont own up, i really think they are like i dont know, conscience-less? hmm.
i guess this post is long enough to make up for yesterday's one right? and oya,
HAPPY BELATED MOTHER'S DAY, mummy!(: LOVE YA FOREVER!:D
it was rather fun too, tricking delia to believe that mep is music elective program, opps i meant it is! it's just not what im implying at. hahah. she is one funny girl, who is RETARDED!:O ehehhe. during recess today, she said "im gonna eat my balls later" wow. delia has balls!:O hahah. and what she meant was cheese balls. retarded girl.
i cant really wait for ROCs now. cos of the bonding part. and like im gonna die bunking with jeanne. cos we're both scared of insects. gosh, i think im gonna die in the hotel. but i guess playing games and all with each other is really fun!:D and we get to be with each other for like 4 days and 3 nights, without our parents. thats sure fun!(: rach may be going to me and jay's room too!:D i forgot to ask jay but i guess she wont mind(: haha. and EVERYONE IS COMING TO ME AND JAY'S ROOM AND THAT IS FINAL! yes soph, delia, aly, jen, you guys are coming over!:D hahaha. and maybe anyone else who wants too!(: maybe we should have a anti-squeezers private meeting too!:D that'll be way too awesome!(: hahaha.
but for now, i have to go!:D i hope this long post can make up for yesterday's too!:D
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons