-Wednesday, September 24, 2008-8:54 PM Y
I have so much more to study. And yet, im bored. What a weird reaction. But anyway, just a little computer time wont kill. And the second later, i know i'll regret this. But i'll just live every second as it passes.
Im gonna finish hist tonight. Do geog tomorrow. I have 4 more chapters for geog. Bio, i havent really started on that. Read through, sorta memorise. But who actually knows what enters my head? Hmm, and i need to do lit. I need to have the patience to read through the stupid book. I enjoy the plot, if it wasnt so hard to read!): Gah. I
wanna need to do lit. I wanna go do IB. I want a bright future. Dang, im sounding like a complete nerd.
Hmm, my objective? Get over EOYs and get a freaking life which i've been deprived of for the last few weeks. Well, sorta. And hmm, i want to get straight As. Yes, im such a nerd. At most B3s. I HATE B4s, especially when they are 64. It really irks me so much. Stupid. Hmm, i want triple science. I want so much, and so i should really try much harder. I should sleep early, dont nap and study. Easier said than done.
I havent even finish the freaking maths ws, or the 2006 exam paper. Like the stupid graph question left!): And so much more. Gah. And stupid freaking art!): Gosh. I need more time.
And honestly, it's because of this you actually learn a lot. Like the problems. Im more of an observer really, and very much honestly. Like i actually observe how people react and i learn from them if they are good. I've been observing so much today. I do that whenever im quiet, so take note next time. And now, the tables have been turned.
I miss the feeling of feeling secure. Im changing, really trying to change. But it's very very hard. I promise you i will, but give me time. Time again, is crucial, in everything. Almost everything has changed. People grow closer, people drift apart. Im closer to some people, but further than normal to others. It's really a mystery how fast things can change. How fast life can be sometimes. It's like in a week, and then change.
Im thanking God so much for the current friends i have now. Like we really should, cos i feel that my close friends now have a great influence on my relationship with God. Like im growing so much closer to him, and knowing him so much more thanks to them!<3 You guys should know who you are right? The girl who reasons with me so much by telling me Bible verses as she reasons by smses!(: Hahah. And the girl who tells me so much during class whenever we start arguing over the right and the wrong in God's eyes. It's really a blessing ot have them as friends.
It's like i've chosen the right friends to really start it right. And like there ARE other friends who i've also grown closer to. Like practically the whole BSG. I love them so, so much. They are like my closest friends in class. And then out of class, there are so many people who i love and i know they love me back too, as FRIENDS. (Im sorry celeste!:D) I really thank God for those people cos without them, i doubt i can even go pass this. Like i really wonder how i did it last year. And like they moltivate me and pressure me to press on. So right now, my objective is to finish EOYs. And before that, i MUST not give up!(:
Off to study!:D