-Thursday, October 16, 2008-8:39 PM Y
I feel so scared. So unsure. I know im supposed to post about happy things only, but i will try and restrain. GAH. The feeling isnt one of the best, it isnt even nice. And it honestly sucks like crap!)):
I know it isnt the best feeling like that. I feel so honestly low. Like all my energy is drained. Okay, partially cos of drill. But the other half is i dont even see a reason to talk. It's such a sucky feeling. Like you're lost and no one's there to guide you.
I dont know, to some extend i really love drill. It's like it makes you feel happy. I really do laugh like mad in drill, and like it's such an irony from when im in class. Like i really do feel happy. It's like a break from academics. It's like REAL bonding. It's like the bestest ever thing.
I honestly love my squad. It isnt like VERY VERY serious and we must win kinda thing. Even though i know Sau wants to win SO freaking badly. But then it's more to that. Like the fellowship and everything with everyone else seems to have taken over the will of wanting to win.
I think my next few posts will be all about drill. Hahah. It isnt even my fault right? But like really, drill has like taken over my lifeeee!:DD But really. I love my squad except for HAHAHAH. Im not mean okay. Tanya's MUCH worse. And honestly, she is so freaking funnny. Like idk if it's cos she doesnt catch as fast as fast or smth. Im gonna die for annual, leading the freaking hike. It's no secret anymore so heh.
OHHH, I DID MY FIRST COMMANDING TODAYYY!:D I know, i rockkk!((: HAHHA. But i said the wrong command but they still did it. Heh. And i rock la. I managed to make natasha and deborah belok ON THE SPOT and TOGETHER. Hahah. But i doubt they'll remmeber so, i guess maybe i wasted my time? HAHAH.
And sau made us march in a straight line AROUND the school. We looked like some idiots i tell you. But it was fun. And the "cave" HAHAHHA. Omg, stupiddd!((: The primary kids are hilarious. Tanya makes the funnniest comments about them tooo!:DD HAHAH.
We can do thisss!((: And honestly, i feel so freaking bad cos sau is stressing like mad over this and over her chinese Os and we're sorta wasting time by like making drill so slack and everything. OHHH, and we have like bonding time at 530? HAHAH. We play the funnnest games ever.
I dont exactly look forward to drill, but when it comes, time past like SUPER DUPER FASTTT!((: And then after drill is bonding with other squads. Heh. Most i guess? And it's so weird cos Rach and Ruth are super duper stressed. And im not at all!((: HAHAH. I thank God there isnt annual drill comm next year!:DD
TOMORROW IS DA DAY!)))):
I just have to keep trusting