-Wednesday, August 05, 2009-10:07 PM Y
Im feeling so bittersweet right now, and definitely very sadhappy feeling within me. I feel like i can cry for her, because she's definitely someone i respect so much. Really.
I mean, you might differ in your thinking from me. But when you work closely with her, you realise how much effort she puts in to like even the littlest and smallest thing. And like it really isnt as easy as you look at it.
Yes, maybe the way she said it wasnt exactly the nicest way ever. But could you even tell how much she was hurting inside her when she realised the truth? Definitely, it wasnt her fault. And sometimes, we fail to see things around us. Like we only care about ourselves. And like we fail to realise and see things have the other person's perspective.
She had such high hopes, but yet they were all crumbled down in one day. Who couldnt be more hurt?
The amount of effort she put in; the amount of time she spent on everything just so she thinks is the best, but yet, what she gets in return?
I feel like this is totally none of my business. But, somehow, i feel affected. I know, it's probably because i respect her. And i know why she's feeling like this, which is why it's affecting me so much!): I feel like i could cry for her right now. For all the unjust feelings she's getting.
Uhh, this week has really been bittersweet. Everything. I love it yet hate it. I love having the presence of God so near me, but yet i hate being who i am. It's such a lovehate thing. I really did feel like just crying today, during gb worship. Yes, it's so weird. Like no one really sings or anything, but yet, worship is really between just you and God.
Yes, and orderly today. WHAT. AN. EXPERIENCE. Im so glad i wont be doing again till like next year!(: HAHA. And well, i honestly cant wait for annual camp too!(: Planning and all!:D Who says you need to be an SL to plan major events!(: HAHA.
I wanted to blog about something else. But i guess, maybe God's just using the people around me to really teach me how to love and to show His love to the people around me. Thanks Neng dear again as usual for helpign me. REALLY. Like i remembered how much Miss Ng said today during badgework that we should "love our neighbours". How very much hard indeed.
Hmm, i really am glad to be in GB. Because firstly, of the friends. You really make the closest friends during your time in GB. Somehow, everyone around you is like someone you can trust kinda thing. Secondly, there's SUPER coool teachers. I love Miss Ng. HAHA. She's SUPER cool, and i guess someone who you can just really talk to. And i RESPECT Miss Yang a lot definitely. Thirdly, it revolves around God. I think that's most important, and it's really awesome!(:
I think im gonna join a Christian cca when i go to JC.
Now, im gonna stick doing my yuedufansi&amathsaa!(: